This one is going to get deep, folks.
I turned 27 a couple of weeks ago. No biggie. I’m not one of those people that freaks out about getting older. 26 was an amazing year in my life. But I was really looking forward to 27. It just seems like one of those ages where you really have your stuff together and I was looking forward to that feeling. I was planning where I was going to spend the next couple of years and I thought I’d met someone who’d be a character in this story for a long time to come.
But life doesn’t always go as planned. Sometimes the pages you’ve already written in your mind are torn out before you even get the chance to live them. And sometimes the person you want to be with, meets someone else.
The last two weeks have been rough. But in the midst of heartbreak I’ve found out who my friends are. I’m trying to learn to be okay again. It comes and goes, and hits you in waves and when you least expect it.
Part of me has no regrets. I really learned a lot in the last year. You know that feeling when you know you’re a better person for having known someone. That’s how I feel. I’d give anything for things to not have turned out the way they did but he really did teach me a lot about myself and pushed me to do things I never thought I could do. For the first time I really opened myself to another person and to the possibilities that life could bring. For that I am forever grateful to him.
On the other hand, the other part of me is angry and sad. I’m not happy with the way things ended. There’s not much I can do to change that.
So bear with me friends as I sort through these feelings. I never was one to let go of things easily. As the weather gets warmer, my mind so easily wanders back to the memories of last summer. I can’t help it; I can feel him everywhere I go.
But life is bringing some pretty big changes my way soon and I can’t wait to share them with you. I’ve got so many plans to somehow make this summer even better than last year’s and so many goals I want to accomplish to keep making myself a better person.
So Long Story Short: This is just a plot twist in the story of my life and I’m looking forward to what the next chapter holds.